Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

finally

[in the night time
when the world is at it's rest
you will find me
in the place I know the best
dancin', shoutin'
flyin' to the moon
U don't have to worry
'cause I'll be come back soon

and we build up castles
in the sky and in the sand
design our own world
ain't nobody understand
I found myself alive
in the palm of your hand
as long as we are flyin'
this world ain't got no end

in the daytime
you wil find me by your side
tryin' to do best
an tryin' to make things right
when it all turns wrong
there no fault but mine
but it won't hit hard
'cause you let me shine

and we build up castles
in the sky and in the sand
design our own world
ain't nobody understand
I found myself alive
in the palm of your hand
as long as we are flyin'
this world ain't got no end ]

he's so good and he knows how to love me
so hood and so heavy in the streets
he's my dude so you better get used to things
and i don't care what they say abot me
That he does it with the best
Runs it in the west
Had it on his chest
And they say that he's gonna hurt me
Just wait and see
Cuz i am what he wants his girl
And i love it
I tried that good boy thing
but the dope boys keep
turnin me on
it's just they know what i want
so bad i love that.

. !

You tasted so good at first, and this is all so tragic and means to an after-school special. The way you first came on, and the way you crept into my life unannounced and like a bad habit, only to make my throat dry and my teeth ache. This is kind of what you were like.
You made me real, and, supposedly, this is what I wanted. This is what we all think we want, at first. We're a dime a dozen, and I'm sure we all sound the same. Same lame look in our eyes as we look into a broken sky, same disdain as we step on a cigarette butt on the sidewalk carelessly. We just look like that.
You made me feel like I was the only thing in the world. One solitary object that just shined, and shined, and shined, and burst through with prominent radiation--threatening to all but you. You were alway the strong one. Weren't you?
It hurt going down always, though. The way the back of my throat would sting with such blissfull numbness each time I kissed you ever though I knew your high was soon to fade. You left blisters, I'm sure. Blisters on my cracked lips that were thin with dehydration and longing. How I did not realize at the time, that you were killing me.
You were a drug.
You were so sweet, and you were the only thing that mattered.
It was like New Years all the time. It was like champagne--never enough to go around. Like I was keeping the bottle under my arm, though, and sharing it with no one. That's kind of what you were like. God, how I hated you in the morning.

I'd wake up and curse you. Even though I knew in my head the damage that was being incured, I still sought it. Am I such a fool?
Oh, the way you'd bring the dullest night into a burning jumble of extasy and self-confidence. How you'd make everything all fade away... even myself.
Fuck I loved you.
God damn I loved how hard you destroyed my brain and made my senses numb with little spazams of fake delight. Yeah--delight it a good way to explain it. You truly were my earthly delight.

Now we sit on your couch and watch movies months later.
You don't say a word, and neither do I. What could we possibly have to say? I'm numb, you're numb, and we're lost in an oh-so-familiar cloud of marijuana. We watch Blow and you kind of think Johnny Depp is hot. I curse you under my breath, and I rub at my nose.
The high is gone.
What do I have left? Half a septum and less than a fraction of my former soul. For this I blame you, although I'll never say it to your face. This is all your fault. You are the reason why D.A.R.E. exists.
You are the reason why kids should not expand their minds.
You killed the high.

subtellite

Being my last dream. And my first thought.